Wed 11/19. Time to make LEMONADE!!!!!!!!

Good morning everyone, Its 7:50am, just having coffee. I am full of good vibes this morning. I actually slept throughout most of the night. I have awoken very refreshed! I meet with the Dr. in a little more than 1 hour. Again, let me emphasize to all of you....the 2 words I want to hear...."clear margin". Wish me luck and clear margin or not, I will be on later today to blog!
Ciao for now,
Trace

Ok I met with Dr. Yee today. I took off my gauze and showed her my ever dripping wound, which she says is pretty natural. We talked about the healing process from this last emergency surgery. I some how had got the impression that the next subject was something she didn't look forward discussing with me. Sure as shit would have it, it was NOT good news. After the last re-excision, they found even MORE cancer. This cancer is 'dotted', in other words, its not a mass, not a whole, it's speckled, like dot here dot there, so microscopic that it did not nor will it ever show up on a mamogram. In a nutshell, she has 'scooped' out so much muscle/fiber/tissue in my right breast, that there really is not anything left to work with.

My only true course of action is to have my right breast removed via a masectomy. Having just had a bomb drop on me, I sat at the edge of the table for a second. "No", I did not just hear what I thought I heard. Surely, there must be chemo or radiation that can kill this crap. So I asked her, and there is no real way to determine ending all of this cancer or killing it prior to it reaching my lymph nodes and moving through out my body.

I'm feeling like I'm in a fog right now. Trying to compose myself, I just lost it front of them. (my Dr. Yee and nurse practiioner Maria) they calmed me down stating that I only have a 8 pct chance cancer returning based on my Oncotype DX genetic testing. So that is good news.

I meet with my oncologist team member this coming monday 11/24 at noon and then meet with my new aquired plastic surgeon that same day at 3pm. I will find out time frames and surgery dates later next week. I am going to have reconstructive surgery done. So this masectomy and breast reconstruction will be a heafty long surgery for me. I need my body to recoupe from the last 3 surgeries.
For now I'm in a little fog, going to go take a nap with the cat, he loves to lay on my chest and hear me out. He lays with me till I fall asleep then he goes and hogs the bed in another area. I will talk to you soon. I obviously have a ton of reading to do. Botttom line is....
masectomy, reconstructive surgery, possibly chemo, possibly radiation therapy..then tamoxifin.


Thats all I know for now. Just remember............... when life gives you lemons....you make lemonade. I guess I'll be making the mother of all batches.....and make the pink lemonade please!!! Have a good day. Hugs to all.....Traci